The test has begun, please face forward and resist all ancestral urges to fidget.

I went to the experiment today. Quite a strange thing. I kind of wish i had partaken during a less i'm-getting-my-shit-together point in my life. recounting the amount of psychedelics, amphetamines, stimulants, solvents, and "the other" categories of drugs that i have allowed into my body during this short 20 years is quite an exhibition of that my downward slope. I don't think I regret these things or that I would have taken them back with the knowledge I now possess, in fact I'm sure that I would have partaken again and again if some evangelical NA leader gave me the chance to right the wrongs he though i'd done. Because I wouldn't be in the position I am in right now, and right now I am quite quite happy with my state, the state I am in at least mentally. I might wish for him to provide me with a bottle of pills, though, that revoke the damage imparted unto my frail ecosystem of a body. I must postpone, the boys are back with bottles of wine from which i will fruitfully fill my gullllet. 

i got drunk